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I think I should just give in..
15:07 Feb 27 2009
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but you're the only thing keeping me sane, and keeping me here.

And now I'm scared.

I think I'm losing you..

COMMENTS

TheDevilsHarlot
22:06 Mar 24 2009

I don't know who you're talking about, but I'll be here for you.

YourDarkness
10:48 Mar 25 2009

YourDarkness
21:14 Aug 01 2012

I lost you.

18:58 Feb 25 2009
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Numb.

Unsure.

Lost.

Insecure.

Messed up.

Choked up.

Teared up.

Fucked up.

Torn.

Confuzed.

Irrational.

Abused.

Craving.

Waiting.

Worrying.

Taking.

Empathetic.

Apathetic.

Feeling.

Nothing.

Sick.

COMMENTS

18:50 Feb 25 2009
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I upset so many people last night.

I'M JUST A FUCKING CRAZY BITCH.

And I never do anything right..

I just want to help.

And I just want the others to be understanding..

I don't mean to make anyone feel bad..

Because of me.

COMMENTS

TheDevilsHarlot
22:06 Mar 24 2009

Are you alright? What happened?

YourDarkness
10:46 Mar 25 2009

I don't remember.. I'm pretty sure the wanting others to be understanding part is about Derick though..

Sometimes I wish to be more ignorant..
07:57 Feb 20 2009
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And innocent.. And univolved.. And blissfully blind of the truth..

Yet noone gave me the choice did they?

They just threw it down and said, "Here. Have fun."

Yay.. Fun..

Deteriorating.. Breaking.. And Losing..

Is this what you meant?

COMMENTS

TheDevilsHarlot
22:07 Mar 24 2009

That's how I feel...

YourDarkness
10:44 Mar 25 2009

At least you aren't alone.. ^_^

TheDevilsHarlot
08:19 Apr 08 2009

^_^

Happy Mass Suicide Day
15:02 Feb 14 2009
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A day I'll never forget. I'm sorry Jones.. Why did this have to happen? ..I'm completely devastated.. But I'm glad my Derick is okay.. But then.. We aren't out of the woods yet..

COMMENTS

06:14 Feb 11 2009
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I want to cry to out to you. But then I don't.

Only in my mind. So know it you won't.

I HATE MYSELF SOMETIMES.

But then I'm just blue..

And thinking of you.

Makes me sad too..

I'M FUCKING CRAZY.

How do you deal with me?

Shit, I'm so jealous.

Attention..

Scared shitless..

And I'm just rude.

I'M HORRIBLE.

Why do I act this way?

I'm so hypocritical.

Laugh when I cry.

Hide the PAIN.

What pain?

The pain is gone.

Or is it really?

I thought it was..

But I'M SO FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD..

I just don't really know anymore..

And I don't know what to do..

There's nothing left to do..

I'M JUST INSECURE.

And I don't know if you know that.

But it will hurt you.

Because I only hurt those I love..